Everything, Anything

Everything
Every last fiber of my being
Is you
Every thought
Is about you
How could I go on without you?
How could I go on?
I wouldn't

It wouldn't be a conscious choice
I would just stop
Sometimes I want to anyways
But then
I remember
You

And now you are gone
I am simply a shell
I have stopped
I am forever gone

But I am still here
You force me to endure the pain
The pain of living without you

And despite all my pain
That
Is the cruelest thing I've ever known you to do

Because
It wasn't your fault
when you hand struck my face

It wasn't your fault
when you left me crying in the rain

I should have been better
Better for you

But now I can't
I can't do anything

Egads

*Sigh*  I finally met a boy who is nice to me and has great conversation and is there for me-- oh wait EXCEPT IN REAL LIFE!  Ugh.  I talk to him ALL the time on facebook, but he totally avoids me in real life.  To reiterate that last post:  Boys are stupid.